Painting Rufus

On the canvas in stage one, blocking in color and shapes.

As I stumble through to completion of this project, general attention jumps around quite a bit. In life, there is great transitioning from what was, to what is yet to be. This "Timeless Rhythms" journal has been created at the headwaters of this feed of my past life into the big river of life.
Like-wise, my focus on, and efforts to produce art also reflects the struggles and jostling with reality I continue to experience. What serious obstacle continues to repeat from the past, is too much isolation. Isolation, in trying to figure out what is holding up attention and ability to move forward in a coordinated manner between creating householder reality, and navigating out in the world as a multi-dimensional artist, woman and cultural human being.
At this stage of experience with paint and life, I sometimes call myself a Well-being Lifestyle Diplomat.
Wow, what has this got to do with the painting of Rufus in the now, you ask? Short answer? EVERYTHING!
Every stroke on the canvas is completely dependent or connected to the whole life-frame I have been testing and developing, for a very long time. An original vision that has guided my presence in, and healthy understanding of life since early childhood. All of my attention and priority has been intuitively focused on an individual whole-picture commitment for over twenty years, and now that foundation is strong.
What seems confounding at present, is what I call the appearance of distractions persisting in my immediate experiences; general responses to my intentions for creative work don't seem readily understood by most everyday people. Hence, the interconnected whole doesn't even make it to the table in a typical conversation... help! While it is true that I have counted on subtlety in large measure, assuming the intelligence of people to 'get it,' it appears that maybe it is me that doesn't get it... or is it a combination of factors that culminates in too little of any one forward moving element? Help!
I think, a team willing to take the time to learn from me could easily trust in my vision.
Then, the context of an appropriate place to work and live this commitment, would truly combine to answer my deepest nighttime conversations with the infinite!
The whole-picture impact of my work would be of perfect timing in the world now, as crisis impacts more and more everyday. I am quite good at facilitating BEING with what is... this is the truth that raises one's quality of life experiences with reality as it is happening. What happens in an individual's responses from this alignment in body/mind consciousness is truly what humans have historically referred to as the miraculous!
Even as I continue to simultaneously pursue a traditional job search, I put this intention for support to create for the greater good out into the world, and release all attachment to this request as much as I am able.

Help! I need somebody! Help, not just anybody!

I am re-writing this post to reframe/ clarify that I am seeking to be found by the right person. The person who can support me as a working artist. What this means is I am seeking a matron/patron as I have written before.
Not a common search to be sure yet, I do not seek what might be commonly found. Commonly found or accepted such as people who buy the good art that is in the marketplace, as opposed to someone who would gain pleasure from supporting the progress of one. One whose work pro-actively participates in the world's healing process!
My painting reflects strength out of which comes sincerity about what I see. Perhaps reflections of my own lifelong healing process, and thus a body of work reflective of intimacy that can only most effectively be communicated without words.

The one who "would want me" is of a weave who knows them-self gaining in equal pleasure supporting the progress of another. A sincere happiness to the self that does not frighten the one who makes such commitments. A commitment that happens in recognition for work that beautifies the world in such a way as to solicit peaceful respite. A pause in recognition to consciously connect to what is inherently possible in each one who recognizes truth. Possibility inherent in each one, even as this recognition is sometimes journeyed to through many challenges. The mystery of healing this unlearning attachment and aversion. That healing is a unique process found in the rhythms occurring as in a symphony, or visually as in a tapestry or painting woven or painted right before one's eyes_ a unique process occurring each in one's own time. One's own rhythm! To be true to that, is to experience delicious risk. The risks that leads to one's own courage. In that place when consciously guided, is found one's own solidity. But I run up the path a bit quickly, when matronage/patronage is the subject here. To experience adequate support is to spread the capacity to share non-verbal seeds of healing more widely. Come forward now. It is a good time to show up.
At the core of my unique working/creating path can be found strength, articulation, persistence. A working project proposal of which the universality in my own journey can be found here.
This particular project would also be a good point of contact for those who may only want a more finite experience in supporting the working life of an artist's productivity. Contact me about it. Let's talk.
If, on the other hand you are reading this and know (of) someone who is this dear longterm supporter yet, who may not be particularly computer oriented, tell them about this site. We may both be looking for each other. Help them take a look.
Thank-you.