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Thursday, January 9, 2014

“Iconic Views at OSU” Series, #1: Participates in OSU student exhibit, while fundraising in support of student project

The first annual juried student art exhibit at Oregon State University's- new Beth Ray Academic Success Center, will host a reception on the 4th Friday- January 24th, from 4 to 6 pm. By participating as student, professional artist and arts advocate in this first annual art show, my work in a new series called, “Iconic Views at OSU”, kicks off two more exhibitions for this series. These consecutive exhibits will happen spring 2014 in another OSU campus location, and again later in the year in the Corvallis community. By participating in this juried show at the Beth Ray Academic Success Center, the “Iconic Views at OSU” art image series goals are- to advocate on behalf of the benefits of re-integrating the arts back into our educational experiences, first by asking the viewer to take the time to look at the work. As an original art work it serves to both raise awareness about looking, and to raise funds in support of my student project called, the ARt project. the ARt project is a new arts access prototype mobile application tool with a content model that engagingly furthers evidence-based observation skills, as we all seek to participate effectively in our expanding monitor-centered reality. You can “Find” the ARt project, “Like” the ARt project, and follow the ARt project's 2014 fund raising developments and exhibition participation, on Facebook, by clicking on this link: ARt project- Accessing culture, connecting community. You can also find the new BRC next door to the new OSU Bookstore- both are located just north of the CH2M Alumni Center. This exhibit will hang until June; and meanwhile I look forward to seeing you there on the 24th!

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Integrating Kindness and Compassion for The New Year 2014

"Integration made visible is kindness and compassion," says Mindsight, well-being, UCLA Psychiatrist- Dr. Dan Siegle. May the New Year be filled with healthy integration for us all! Taking a life review and recap perspective in this post, I write about what " visible- even manifest kindness and compassion," means for me, now: Releasing a long deserved, Ahhhhhh... I pause to articulate, mine is- after decades of building and building real integration of my own conscious intellectual life; what I know within without plaguing self-doubt; of building comprehensive benefit from the hard work to reach better whole-self acceptance; a consciously lived spiritual life, joyfully if more privately- coupled to a gifted creative life; is a life far more integrated with my on-going dreams for a successfully realized material life; a balance whole life eventually integrated with a truly supportive love life at loooong last- as I still believe this to be soooo much nicer! Yesterday, the next moment of mature insight was freely and beautifully stated by my daughter in a phone call we shared together, very located in the present. For me, it was a parting of the waves experience, a deep drink from the well- experience. She is in her mid-twenties now, and I am so grateful for the qualities of development coming to the fore by her choices, as she lives her own independently successful life. I worked full-tilt during those full-time, single parenting years- all 23 of them. Covering the waterfront of developmental well-being, to raise my child as benefitting from all the supports I valued and tirelessly continued putting together, in myriad ways. I worked full-tilt during those full-time, single parenting years: defining-as-I-lived into the intense, non-stop therapy work: a working scaffold-on-the-run of personal well-being, for the first time in my own life. Necessarily independent of all family ties, and all past social ties to that point, in the land of the free and the brave- I continue even today, figuring out how to make my career and living as an artist of international cultural upbringing- influences. Free from inherited, and through hard work- avoidable, non-preferential chaos. I wear a medal of honor I gave myself one Mother's Day years ago, to mark these everyday truths of my life. From the moment of conception, my child and I continue to have a deep, growing, special bond. It does contrast very well, the reality of having been raised with two younger sibs, by intense mental illness, not ever diagnosed until I was in my thirties, with a daughter of my own daughter and in Kindergarten. By then, I personally had a basket-full of years of the therapy work belonging to this person-in-denial to do, under my own belt. If I can even begin to touch with words, any accurate written description- what integration might look like, after doing the best one can from the getgo to navigate the growing up 24/7 terrifying hell about my only living, high-functioning, terrifyingly (high IQ-low self-esteem), nevertheless extremely intelligent- parent. I cannot emphasize this reality of navigating the mind field of a parent in denial and avoidance, while projecting and attaching- because they are among many things, a mentally ill, high-functioning and terrifying intellect. If you've no exposure to denied egregious mental illness in your parent, there is not enough emphasis that can be made. The residue hardest to shed is, I have ALWAYS felt very guarded about many things, centrally about revealing, or knowing the equally complex truth of revealing any of these personal, historical details- in order to be seen, heard and/or valued individually. A gift I continue my own on-going maturity growth/integration of compassion and kindness, to give myself, first. Yet dear reader, even though what I share are very intimately scaled insights- imposed isolation from the social world outside must be equally, compassionately abated. We all suffer greatly in America, from shame, and a narrowness of normalcy conditioning. And even as there is now a reasonable, clinical diagnosis- this multi-decade, geographically distanced individual, still lives in denial of their truth- and always will. Shame costs us everything. On this uphill, growth-into-conscious-life journey, I have only very recently in the past two years, more fully integrated a very hard acceptance of this truth about social shame's costs and my parent's fears reflecting a lifetime of wrong-thinking choices, though I never give up on the soul trapped inside the storm. It means, continuously integrating the evolutionary reality of a biological relation in this life who is unpredictable at every moment, while continuously untangling less, and working more integrative-ly, with all the internal challenges tied to this being. The one you've always needed to be loved by to grow up well, no matter the distance- but have had to intuitively choose from a very, very young age, to (initially secretly) decide to literally escape, in order to save your own life. Someone whose job it was to care for and protect you, whom you've always only loved, yet who, (I've) had to work very hard, again initially with help, to learn- has never been safe enough to let that far in to your psychic/emotional life. Reflective of the years of work to untangle, clarify, heal more and the gains made and earned integrating kindness and compassion- to now navigating in order to mutually establish more healthy, non-familial integration (i.e., meaningful, substantive friendships)- can be awkward, hard work trusting others. So I begin again, chopping wood and carrying water. See? (*This is truly a simply profound inquiry.) For anyone close enough to believe they see me, art really does save lives. In the past two years of post-Bacc studies, to finally integrate meaningful academic accomplishments into a valuable whole, in support of my being able to work confidently from this self-realized platform to be reasonably competitive in the marketplace: I have good footing now in a finely integrative opportunity, called, the ARt project. An integration of passions regarding access and courage, I've managed to build from an original vision of my own in collaboration with many talented others at the local university. As the project enters the scary (to me) phase of budget writing, grant proposal development, personal worth analysis, proposal pitching, presenting and marketing- as I prepare to leave this wombish period of my self-made life, I take another step in shedding large burdens met- of separation, in my easing carefully into the flowing river of life. May I continue swimming well as an individual soul of The Divine, as a blessedly conscious, caring parent, and as working/selling artist, who is also becoming a start-up founder- with greater mastery found in the grace of compassion and kindness. *Below, the image is of a painting I created- with quite the true story of living integrity flowing through how it came into being.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

the ARt project- what is it?

For the past 18 months I have been given the great, great opportunity to work on a student project of my own vision, while pursuing my post-Bacc degree at the local university! The project is a result of recognizing that mobile app technology contains so much possibility to make the beauty and wonder in this world so much more accessible for so many more people. With this basic recognition and a lifetime of experiences in the arts, I hit on a combination of thoughts and discoveries that combined to light up my mind and inner vision to see the holistic possibilites of a new tool. Without going into too many other details, at this stage the project has enjoyed a proof-of-concept public launch at a local science and arts festival_ as of last year. As student-project director, I have also presented the prototype project to academic peer review at a regional digital technology in education conference, also last year. Now, as initial and generous university support funding to realize this stage of the project, and much more- winds down, I am building my first public funding campaign in support of the project. the ARt project has currently entered second-stage refinements in the university Engineering capstone group for the next 12 months. This means it is very important to fund what comes next! To do this, I will be learning by doing, how to apply for grants, search for private funders and play with crowd funding! To mark the launch of this brand new funding campaign project- I share the essential portion of an email that arrived in my inbox just yesterday, with this message:

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

When life just opens up, and we find ourselves spending time with people whose work we admire

I had a very lovely 15 minutes today. It was a lovely little window of timelessness in the quality of this day because I plunged in, giving myself permission to make contact with someone whose work I have been savoring and appreciating about a subject in art that we both share in our very individual ways.
I am not going to go into details about who this person is, as I do not have their permission to be detailed about them. I am not going to go into detail about the work we have in common because I don't want to brag.
I do very simply want to create witness to the quality of this small accomplishment that means so much to me today.
It all came about as I had written a letter to them over last week-end asking essentially if they would mentor a precious corner of my own academic work right now, knowing how in-demand their life and time is. Yet before sending that letter today, it just seemed appropriate to give a call to their place of business first, to ask if there might be a protocol for making this kind of inquiring contact out of the blue.
Rather than any stuffiness on their end, and I went through two administrative check points, what I received was a seamlessly saturated 15 minutes of on-the-spot mentoring and so much more, with someone who seemed was also having a good day. Someone who could receive my call at a moment on their end when everything just fell into place between us to share this passionate commonality_ and for a few unfettered moments, enjoy it in an extended conversation that touched on so many other details in very friendly repartee. It was 15 minutes that really has made my whole day, for at least the next 6 months!

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Please Excuse the New Image-Slider Construction!

While there are two images popping up in the once beautiful image-slider that seems a distant memory now! I am smack in the middle of getting a new and much improved image-slider in place, at the top of my art blog!

It uses jquery, css and javascript so, I am feeling quite accomplished having followed the insert instructions well enough, to get the device smoothly onto my art blog here. Just not smooth enough to migrate my own images into it yet! So, it's important to keep in mind, I am the traditional visual artist with some technical ability_ not the programmer. Programming is its own art form and an area that I respect and would love to have the talent working with me on the ARt project in fact! But this is another post.

Meanwhile, this state of improvements-in-progress for my new image-slider, is temporary! So please excuse the mess, and I appreciate your patience as I learn and grow in all skills needed to accomplish the task(s) at hand!

* No, the two photographs up there popping up near the header are not my art works.

*The artwork just above here in this post, is project-driven. Exercises to open my thinking up about map design inside the ARt project. So they are not particularly strong examples of my visual style in art making. Yet as I say, this is material for another post!

Keep checking back!

Monday, September 3, 2012

Glimpses on the Path: Self-esteem & Self-efficacy

Gifts of self-esteem, including: self-value, self-worth, self-respect and then very importantly, self-efficacy_ all came to reveal their messages for my birthday this year. September 1st was a day of sitting quietly and reading about this newfound orientation to greater inner well-being, all day long. September 2nd was a day of actual celebration.                                                                
Combined with reading a certain poem on self-empowering, female identity confirmation-building, beginning within, for the past few months_ as increasing bouts of insecure collaboration, transformed into months of inner anxiety, popping out in periodic struggle on the ARt project... I awoke today noticing that my own lifelong responses to women artists, their work and online professional presentations, were all glowing in my field of attention! 


For the past week and 3 days I have been at home & around town on a two-week stay/ vacation. I am enjoying having no schedule, sleeping, and slowly putting my house back in order after 7 months of intense achievement to reach one of the big goals of my post bacc studies. I have yet to internally celebrate what I have, with the expertise of talented others, recently & wildly successfully launched: a prototype project that combines ar technology with a portion of the Percent for Art Collection on the local university campus, at this time. Celebrating myself as competent and capable, gifted, intelligent & talented, is a must do for my own well-being that is not quite waiting in stasis anymore, as I more consciously redefine historical attachments, toward more positive internally fed acknowledgments, because I now understanding better why they never came earlier in life in ways that were apporopriately nourishing then. More than just the celebratory hoorah, I am truly on a journey of learning to become my own mentor in my life and professional development moments such as this.



Anticipating the new academic year beginning in a few short weeks, I know that I do want finish my 2nd bachelors degree in French this coming new school year; I also want to master writing skills well enough to have the choice to publish my research on E. Vigée Le Brun; I want the opportunity the ARt project affords as a custom internship at the end of the school year, summer 2013. 


I am saying this all out loud because to consciously develop my inner guidance, grounded in the above renewing encounters with authentic self-worth, impressions & vision description of solid self-esteem/self-efficacy_ is where I need to feel lots of (inner focus) support to be consistent, clear & on track. 

If I didn't say this enough, let me repeat myself:


I want all the intrinsic qualities of self-esteem & self-efficacy needed within to navigate very well; to be grounded in inner strength and clarity of conviction; to assert myself where needed in academia this coming year to reach these goals successfully indeed. All without making anyone else a target of historical insecurity habits. 




In fact, working in a much more supportive academic environment is appropriate to reinforcing taking care of needs, as I do become successful in reaching goals this coming year.



*I have finally posted an accompanying image. Enjoy!